Borderline Love





This is an area in which people with BPD struggle intensely. 

We usually have a train wreck of relationships, broken marriages, unsuitable, unavailable partners, and also more prone to being hooked in by controlling, narcissistic or dependent partners.  

Many factors ensure maximum chaos and destruction in a BPD relationship. 



*Out of control emotions

These can push people away when we become obsessively jealous, have fire fueled rages, deep depression, low self esteem, pschosis or overwhelming with all our love

*Push Pull

Adoration and devaluation when doubt creeps in our mind. From all consuming love to cold apathy in seconds. 

*Paranoia of abandonment  

Jealousy, excessive texts, calls, out of control emotions, psychosis, to the extreme of stalking, accusations etc



*To fill the emptiness inside

This is why we can be more prone to falling for other cluster B personality disorders, narcistics, controlling, manipulative people.

We need to feel wanted, huge amounts of love to stop the paranoia and emotiness. We tend to overlook all faults to maintain our “fairy tale love” fantasy.

The alternative seems too scary.



*Self harm, suicidal thoughts;

This is very very hard for us to deal with and we understand it ( kinda)

To people with no knowledge this is scary and can send people running or end up with a malignant or equally as “damaged” person. Either is no good for us. 

*Impulsiveness- sex

Sometimes we may or may not cheat. 

We may do things without thinking, reckless behaviour, live for the moment.



I will do another post on how to have a healthy relationship. It’s extra hard as many of us don’t know what normal is.  

In brief these things will help;

*medications

*therapy

*having our own lives, activities to be happy in ourselves. 

*recognising red flags to bad relationships.

I can’t get no sleep…

Well post meds I don’t get the catatonic low or the dangerous, bat shit crazy highs.

I do still get mood swings, just far less severe and for shorter times.

Last week I was depressive. Sleeping most the time… God I was exhausted!!!

This week I’m still as unproductive, but I can’t sleep. AT ALL.

Well I can take some super strength sedatives but they make me snore like a warlus and hangover in morning.

So I spend my insomniac nights in bed ( as always) researching random things on Google.

From worlds most dangerous countries, to kitten videos, to copyright information everything!

Last night it was tarantulas. Lol I now know a heck of a lot about these bad boys and girls 😉

I hate spiders but after a couple videos I started to find it really interesting.

I would be an ace in a pub quiz 😉

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