- “But I don’t want to go among mad people” Alice remarked “oh you can’t help that ” said the cat ” we’re all mad here, I’m mad, you’re mad”. -lewis Carroll Alice in wonderland
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I’m A Borderline Blonde I’m in my mid thirties, female, big close family and one daughter. I relate very much to Alice the Lewis Carroll character. You will see why. I love pegasus and have a little stuffed toy collection of them 😉
I have worked as a bar tender, chef, dementia trainer and nurse and something secret ( for now)
I have a daughter, I’m chatty, friendly, popular… But what people don’t know, is its all pretend. It’s my mask. I’m a chameleon.
I can adapt who I act and what I do instinctively to whoever or whatever it is.
Men I pretend to be whoever they want. I have never had a normal relationship. I’m scared of my emotions and in my head I’m forever trapped in a black cave.
Who in the world am I? Ah that’s the great puzzle – Alice
I have a diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder along with depression ( possible bipolar)
My dad was a paranoid schizophrenic, 2 of my other sisters have bipolar and my daughter has aspergers and deoression.
Insanity certainly strolls through my family!
This blog is my attempt to provide information, personal experiences and to help other people.
We need to break the mental health taboos one mad rant at a time.
Borderline personality, if people have heard of it, automatically think of “bunny boilers” like Glenn Close from fatal attraction and other such unstable ladies.
Some people say we are manipulative, attention seeking and it isn’t even an illness. Just an excuse for bad behaviour. Forums will often contain comments like ” my borderline ex”
Well my retort to them would be ” go live with this illness, do research and don’t be such ignorant narrow minded fuckwits!”
Sorry but drives me ( even more) mental.
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